Starting Over

Each word that you had spoken
Was nothing I had heard
But I almost started choking
It’s like I knew every word
I thought I was alone
It was the card that I was dealt
But that same desperation
Was something you had felt

And what I always craved
Like a never-ending thirst
You said it was a gift
I always saw it as a curse
This emotion overwhelmed me
When I kept it to myself
I wasn’t meant to keep it
It was meant for someone else

I may have broke my promise
But that was yesterday
And the war I win tomorrow
Is the fight I start today

Over, I’m starting over
Been pushed aside and left to die
You’ve given up on me
But I’m starting over
I’m starting over

They told me not to worry
The pain would go away
But every time I closed my eyes
The colour turns to grey
I know that life is painful
No matter what the length
My pain may never disappear
But neither will my strength

I cried, I cried, I cried
They never understood
They tried, they tried, they tried
I knew they never would

No one saw the scars
The tears become my friend
I guess I lost the line
Between the real and pretend
The voices in my head
Drown out the whisper in my chest
But today that whisper’s screaming
Louder than the rest
What did the demons see?
Maybe they’re scared of me!
The sticks and stones had broken
And their words were fading fast
So today I will keep searching
And give the finger to my past

Over, I’m starting over
Been pushed aside and left to die
You’ve given up on me
But I’m starting over
I’m starting over
I’ve turned around and walked away
From the demon I call yesterday
Over, I’m starting over

Cause all I felt was crying
Like drowning in the rain
But now I know that I can tell
When others feel the same.
Cause when I held your hand
Until you were okay
My scars all started fading
And the torment went away

If I could be that shallow one
That never feels the pain
I’d beg for my emotion back
I wouldn’t last a day
So take my mask away from me
Time to let it show
Cause my story isn’t over
Cause someone needs to know

Over, I’m starting over
Been pushed aside and left to die
You’ve given up on me
But I’m starting over
I’m starting over
I’ve turned around and walked away
From the demon I call yesterday
Over, I’m starting over
My story, it isn’t over